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Date: 2006-11-09 15:37
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I started this fairly long entry and was going well but then had to close w/o saving when my big boss (VP of the region) walked in. :-( And I wa sgoing so well!

I was talking about dieting. I am currently doing weight watchers, for real, meaning that I am doing the weekly points thing and going once a week. This is my first week, actually, and I go to weigh-in tomorrow. That's all well and good. But my question is why?  Why am I dieting?  Easy answer is, of course, because I am "overweight."  But am I really?  Umm, no.  I am on the high end of the scale for mu height/age, but not overweight.  I weigh more than I have in the past.  I weigh 140, and I liked when I was 120.  BUT DIETING MAKES ME UNHAPPY.  It makes me unhappy with myself, it makes me feel like I am failing, it takes away the pleasure that eating well, that eating certain things, brings me.  It means I am denying myself the simple pleasure of eating what I like and of enjoying a meal, because I am always feeling guilty for enjoying food when I am dieting.  How can that be good?  Where is the sense in that? 

I have some personal goals:

Knit holiday gifts for everyone this year.  Yes, since I am not that skilled yet, that means scarves, but I am okay with that.  I like to knit scarves.  I'd like to make Adam and I an afghan for the bed too, but that might be an after-Christmas project.

Find a writing class to take.

Continue with riding lessons with Ana.

There are others, but those are the ones I am on for now.  :-)

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User: optimist_ic
Date: 2006-11-09 23:11 (UTC)
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Your post at the alt_parenting community caught me eye. I don't normally read those, but something about yours drew me in. So, I followed to your personal journal and thought i'd just start with saying hi.
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User: dreams_edge
Date: 2006-11-10 19:00 (UTC)
Subject: Hi :-)
Welcome! And I just added you back. :-)

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November 2006